This is my
boyfriend, and I am completely in love with him<3.
I will love you endlessly.
“I can usually drink you right off of my mind, but I miss you tonight.
I can normally push you right out of my heart, but I’m too tired to fight.
Yeah the whole thing begins, and I let you sink into my veins, and I feel the pain like it’s new.
Everything that we were, everything that you said, everything that I did and that I couldn’t do plays through tonight.
Tonight, your memory burns like a fire, with every one it grows higher and higher.
I can’t get over it, I just can’t put out this love.
I just sit in these flames and pray that you’ll come back.
Close my eyes tightly, hold on and hope that I’m dreaming.
I know that you’re moving on, I know I should give you up.
But I keep hoping that you’ll trip and fall back in love.
Time’s not healing anything.
Baby, this pain is worse than it ever was…” - Rascal Flatts
Maybe one day, you’ll read this somehow, whether it’s someone showing or telling you about this, or you just happen to come across my page, whatever it is, I just want you to know that I love you. Always. I think about you, all the time. No matter how much you say you hate me, or say that I was the worst girlfriend in the world, I hope you know that you were the BEST boyfriend, and you’ll always be a part of me. I can still feel that five year old James within me. I can still remember that silly, happy boy who would play with the chubby cheeks that he absolutely loved but I absolutely hated, the boy who knew every inch of my body, the boy I shared all four years of high school with… I can still remember those high school days, pushing my way through the crowded hallways, through all the big people, and the slow ass ‘jiggaboos’, just to find you after class, so I could run up to you, jump and kiss you, and walk down the halls holding your hand(the right way, and not the retarded way lol.) You were the reason why I looked forward to every class, cause I knew I’d get to see you before and after class, and receive one of your perfect little kisses<3 To this day, I still wonder why you left, but I guess shit happens, and you can’t always have what you want. I want you to know that you can call me every single mean thing you can possibly think of, go ahead, I don’t care, because I’ll still love you unconditionally, and deep down, like WAY deep down inside your heart, you know I’ll always be your Boop, your Pineapple, your pug, your first true love… James Gordon, you will forever be my Elf, my Mint Chocolate Chip, MY first true love.
Just remember, no one will ever love you as much as I love you. And if you ever need someone, I’m just a phone call away. You’re probably wondering when I wrote all this, lol. You’ll never know 0.o
Can’t stop, won’t stop, I must be dreaming…